Blue

Today I hear of a twin very ill in hospital. The discovery of a brain tumour. His twin brother is beside himself with grief. As is his wife and family. He is on the operating table. It does not look good.

I also have twin sons and have tried to imagine the devastation to one as a result of the loss of the other. I have tried to imagine it because I thought I should, to prepare for that possiblity. I have done this when I have seen the extreme happiness they have had together.

If I were to lose my son, no, this is beyond comprehension and something I cannot and do not wish to imagine.

I went out into the garden and tried to think of this twin and his brother and his family with positive thoughts. Some call this praying. I call it using that part of ourselves we know so little about but a part some of us know can make a difference sometimes. Some call that 'God'. I don't. We have such a huge amount of power but use it so little. Some of us use it unconsciously. I just want to use it and make a happy ending. I wish.

I have not blogged very much and was wondering what it's all about and 'why'. Now I know. I needed to say all this to 'someone' and no one.


Later...

No news is good news. But is it? Is my friend with her family, very distressed. This is what blogs are for. For unloading without worrying anyone.

And why is our Prime Minister allowing our troops to go to the front line in Iraq? Is he mad?